its been so long. sorry daveed and greenbird, but i got lost in thailand. big fiasco with my family. big changes ahead. ive moved out of this place and decided to go to iceland. not there yet. im three quarters of the way financially, maybe we can all go together if we pool. think then. i cant wait to have you both back wrapped in my arms under a cool sleeping bag. those were wonderful days.

im really in a less depressed state. something of a content feel with my singularity. but it always bothers me, it always bothers me. i see people meeting for a week and then going off to fuck or something, and just stop thinking. then a few weeks later theyre split with big drama.

i want that drama. i want those episodic relationships. but i cant do it, everything tells me that i cant do it. my body and mind reject those false feeling of temporary comfort. oregon is nice though. making friends and taking my sculpting to all sorts of fun. electric and machine are having lots of crossing with clay. ill have to speak more about it later. glad to be back, and i hope to get a call from you two later.